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| I was a fan of the "Granny" paper doll
for the same reason that I liked "Shirley Temple" -- because she was 18" tall! None of my other paper dolls approached this height! |
Granny had such vividly colored outfits!
"Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it? -- every, every minute?"
Question asked by Emily, in OUR TOWN
"to find a value above all price for the smallest events in our daily life" ~Thornton Wilder
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| I was a fan of the "Granny" paper doll
for the same reason that I liked "Shirley Temple" -- because she was 18" tall! None of my other paper dolls approached this height! |
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| Riding the Tour Bus in Montreal ~ September 2023
~ then 2023 / now 2026 ~ ~ Happy Anniversary! ~ |
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| ~ July 15 ~ |
"The sky was turning red and the blue hills pulled up in front of us when we stopped to have supper. I hated to go inside and miss the beautiful changes. . . . it looks like someone spilled paint on the mountains and set the rim of the sun on fire." (159)
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| ~ August 30 ~
A few months back ~ December 2024 |
For me, the nostalgia of this coming - of - age novel goes back to the summer of 1976, when I enrolled in a week - long meet - the - author seminar at Lindenwood College with guest speaker Katie Letcher Lyle. I could not believe my good fortune!
I Will Go Barefoot, featuring 13 - year - old Jessie, takes place in a small Virginia town during the early 1950s. I grew up a decade later in Missouri, and was already nineteen when I first read this novel. Still, our experiences were not so different.
In a touching and excellent review on goodreads, Anna Bowling decribes the novel as "a poignant slice of life look at the transition from child to young woman. . . . Set during the postwar years of the Truman presidency, this story has the feel of a medieval ballad, the lazy sprawl of late summer, and the lacy veil between innocence and lessons learned."
In a story filled with gorgeous natural description, Jessie marks the passing summer with repeated references to lilacs, honeysuckle, and roses.
32: The smells of honeysuckle and wild roses and tar, the cool wind sound and the droning of bees, the waterfall sunshine in cascades, lay heavy upon this day, upon all the world, it seemed . . .
97: I closed my eyes and tried to keep everything just as it was, to remember for always church, its smell, this most beautiful summer. . . .
102 - 03: I tried to suck in as many good smells as I could. The summer had all been like that . . . roses so lovely my throat ached knowing they had already begun to die at the moment they were most beautiful, honeysuckle so sweet-smelling it made my stomach churn, grass green enough to hurt my eyes, and leaves so tenderly delicate they could not possibly last.
"I wish it could be summer all the time, don't you?"
I began to agree, found that I didn't. . . .
I only wished it would smell like summer all the time. But that would probably be boring. What made lilacs so marvelous was that they were only here for about a week, and you waited for them and got ready for them, and maybe even the getting ready was better than the lilacs themselves. Lilacs were even better than honeysuckle, which lasted nearly all summer. Maybe that was why.
106, 158: Summer hurt too much, starting with its lilacs that were dead so soon, its roses that were gone in a day, its moment of Toby Bright. It occurred to me at that instant that I was very tired of it, tired even of the honeysuckle and the roses. It was time for a change. I did not wish it could be summer all the time all, was anxious for burning leaves and red-gold color to replace the endless greens; longed for even the dull blue-whiteness of November . . . some distant lavender winter day.
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| A Flawless Sparkle Plenty |
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| One of many rubber faced teddy bear designs
created by Rushton Toys, with expressions ranging from manic to depressive. None of these look exactly like mine, but you get the idea. |
For some reason these sad - faced, blue eyeshadowed bears were a thing in the early 1960s, and we picked the one you see above to give to our baby brother Aaron for his 1st or 2nd birthday.
Why would we choose such a gloomy guy? Maybe we felt sorry for his pathetic little pout or fell for his chubby little cheeks. Whatever the appeal, we adored the sorrowful little stuffie, and he remains in the family to this day -- over 60 years later -- in my care. Somewhere along the way, Aaron outgrew Blue Eyed Bear -- as we always called him -- so I took over the responsibility.
He will never be a happy teddy, but that's okay. He will always have a home in the toy chest, and it's fun to bring him out on Aaron's birthday and say, "Hey, rememember me?!"
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| Still Life with Onions, 1889
Vincent van Gogh, 1853 – 1890 |
If you need a startling insult, how about the expression hurled by "the impatient and contemptuous Mole, who trotted along the side of the hedge chaffing [teasing] the other rabbits as they peeped hurriedly from their holes to see what the row was about. "Onion-sauce! Onion-sauce!" he remarked jeeringly, and was gone before they could think of a thoroughly satisfactory reply. Then they all started grumbling at each other. "How stupid you are! Why didn’t you tell him—" "Well, why didn’t you say—" “You might have reminded him—" and so on, in the usual way; but, of course, it was then much too late, as is always the case.
from The Wind in the Willows (8 - 9, emphasis added)
by Kenneth Grahame
illustrated by Arthur Rackham
"Before I went to sleep I went over all the things I wished I had
said . . . and some of them were incredibly clever and cutting"
from Travels With Charley (69)
[cf. L'esprit de l'escalier]
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| “Life is like an onion; you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.” ― Carl Sandburg |
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| Grasshopper (Sprinkhaan) 1918
Anna Julia "Julie" de Graag (1877–1924) Rijksmuseum, Amsterdam |
A phase of August sadness -- what Emily Dickinson calls "further in summer" -- is now upon us: too late to say midsummer, too early to say late summer. Birdsong has given way to insect chorus, and beneath our feet, somewhere in the grass, an entire, nearly invisible civilization is celebrating the seasonal change. The crickets have their own ceremonial customs and canticles, unobtrusive, gradual, gentle. No obstrusive ordinances required, only the ancient -- or as Dickinson puts it, "antiquest" -- enhancement of Nature.
But what about that "Enlarging Loneliness"? Surely the lament of summer's impending end is experienced not only (if at all) by the insects; but more likely as a pathetic fallacy within our human hearts. Our existential sadness is mitigated only by "Druidic Difference," a sense that our ancient globe is rounding toward autumn, inevitably as ever.
Indeed, in another week or so,
August will be "burning low":
Further in Summer than the Birds –
Pathetic from the Grass –
A minor Nation celebrates
Its unobtrusive Mass.
No Ordinance be seen –
So gradual the Grace
A gentle Custom it becomes –
Enlarging Loneliness –
Antiquest felt at Noon –
When August burning low
this spectral Canticle
Repose to typify –
Remit as yet no Grace –
No furrow on the Glow,
But a Druidic Difference
Enhances Nature now –
Again, assisted by insects -- flies & bees --
Dickinson captures our autumnal anguish:
If you were coming in the Fall
I'd brush the Summer by
With half a smile, and half a spurn
As Housewives do, a Fly
If I could see you in a year
I'd wind the months in balls
And put them each in separate Drawers
For fear the numbers fuse
If only Centuries, delayed
I'd count them on my hand
Subtracting, til my fingers dropped
Into Van Dieman's Land
If certain, when this life was out
That yours and mine, should be
I'd toss it yonder, like a Rind
And take Eternity
But, now, uncertain of the length
Of this, that is between
It goads me, like the Goblin Bee
That will not state its sting
~Both poems by Emily Dickinson (KL ~ FN ~ QK)
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| Happy Birthday
to Missouri Poet Sara Teasdale (born in St. Louis, August 8, 1884 - died January 29, 1933): "There will be stars forever; while we sleep." Photo credit: Man Of La Book: A Bookish Blog |
Sarah Trevor Teasdale
[Christened Sarah Trevor Teasdale,
but later dropped the final "h"]
I would have stood on your hot
Missouri porch for hours,
holding my bouquet of flowers
to show you that my thirst
for your affection was preferable
to suitors Lindsay and Ernst.
Although the bright Missouri sun
would the flowers wilt, I will stay
Till you kissed me away.
A puff across your hand,
direct to me, to show you understand,
or is your sweet breath to send
my fate into the winds.
by Robert Manchester (1943 - 2022)
Read more at Your Daily Poem & "Colors of Summer"
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| Collected Poems |
Psalm Concerning The Castle
Let me be at the place of the castle.
Let the castle be within me.
Let it rise foursquare from the moat's ring.
Let the moat's waters reflect green plumage of ducks,
let the shells of swimming turtles break the surface
or be seen through the rippling depths.
Let horsemen be stationed at the rim of it,
and a dog, always alert on the brink of sleep.
Let the space under the first storey be dark,
let the water lap the stone posts,
and vivid green slime glimmer upon them;
let a boat be kept there.
Let the caryatids of the second storey
be bears upheld on beams that are dragons.
On the parapet of the central room,
let there be four archers,
looking off to the four horizons.
Within, let the prince be at home,
let him sit in deep thought, at peace,
all the windows open to the loggias.
Let the young queen sit above, in the cool air,
her child in her arms;
let her look with joy at the great circle,
the pilgrim shadows,
the work of the sun and the play of wind.
Let her walk to and fro.
Let the columns uphold the roof,
let the storeys uphold the columns,
let there be dark space below the lowest floor,
let the castle rise foursquare out of the moat,
let the moat be a ring and the water deep,
let the guardians guard it,
let there be wide lands around it,
let that country where it stands be within me,
let me be where it is.
Denise Levertov (1923 – 1997)
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