Thursday, November 19, 2020

Instatoon

Spinning the Web ~ Taken September 3, 2020


The Jeweled Books ~ Taken October 17, 2020


Across the Street ~ Taken October 1, 2020


Eating Poetry ~ Farmers Market


You Will Be the Light
July 16, 2019 & July 3, 2020


Ephemera ~ Taken August 5, 2020


Petunias ~ July 2019


Fourth of July ~ Las Vegas ~ 2019
See Penn & Teller?


Gerry ~ Vaca! ~ July 2019

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Safe Home

Don't you love it that this birdhouse
has it's own birdhouse?

As Susan Stewart says of the miniature: 
"...what we look for is the dollhouse within the dollhouse
and its promise of an infinitely profound interiority." (61)

"Safe house. Saying the words to myself in secret.
For safe house made me smile.
Safe house made me feel warm.
Safe house was something small you could hide in, I thought.
Like a dollhouse where if you were small enough to fit inside
you would be so small nobody would come looking for you.
" (61)

from
Black Girl / White Girl (2006)
Joyce Carol Oates

These touching lines from Oates' novel
reminded me to re-read some previous favorites,
written by my friend Jan Donley and posted a few years back:

"Washington Street"
"But something about that house on Washington Street calls you,
reminds you of something you just cannot name.
You see it in her eyes when you look at the photo.
You want someone to tell you the story of that house and her in it.
You were there, yet you need someone to tell the story."


@ Picture of Home

&

"House"
"You hold the house in the palm of your hand—a triangle roof
and a square base. No windows. No doors. Just the shape. Simple.
The house a child would draw if you said, 'Draw a house.'"


@ Whatnots

@ The House You're Standing In . . .
or Holding in the Palm of Your Hand

Sunday, November 15, 2020

The Quotidian Life
Is Not Always Easy

Depression Glass novelty pieces from my grandmother’s house.
See how the little amber bowl is a cauldron?!
My grandma always kept toothpicks in the yellow one.
And I always begged to drink milk or water from the green one
 — there were 2 of them, with matching saucers.

One-of-a-kind handmade Halloween card
from my talented sister-in-law Tina McF.
"I would hope that my readers feel a sense of awe at the quality of human endurance, at the endurance of love in the face of a variety of difficulties; that the quotidian life is not always easy, and is something worthy of respect. I would also hope that readers receive a larger understanding, or a different undertanding, of what it means to be human, than they might have had before. We suffer from being quick to judge, quick to make excuses for ourselves and others, and I would like the reader to feel that we are all, more or less, in a similar state as we love and disappoint one another, and that we try, most of us, as best we can, and that to fail and succeed is what we do." (281 - 82)

Elizabeth Strout (b 1956)
comments on her novel Olive Kitteridge

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For more about the quotidian in Olive Kitteridge
and several other novels,*

see my current post:

"Spinning the Web"

@The Fortnightly Kitti Carriker
A literary blog of connection & coincidence;
custom & ceremony


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*Things Invisible to See ~ Nancy Willard
The Guest Book ~ Sarah Blake
Eleanor Oliphant ~ Gail Honeyman
Olive Kitteridge ~ Elizabeth Strout
Black Girl / White Girl ~ Joyce Carol Oates
Ordinary Grace ~ William Kent Krueger

Sedem Stems from Gerry's Garden
Not ready to give up Halloween just yet!

And looking ahead to Spring . . .

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

A Form of Madness


Take these two patriots, for example;
which one sounds sane and which one sounds insane?

“Compared to war, all other forms of human endeavor
shrink to insignificance. God help me, I do love it so
.”

George S. Patton Jr. (1885 – 1945)
General of the United States Army in WW II

"Though I have been trained as a soldier,
and participated in many battles,
there never was a time when, in my opinion,
some way could not be found
to prevent the drawing of the sword.
I look forward to an epoch when a court,
recognized by all nations,
will settle international differences
."

Ulysses S. Grant (1822 - 1885)
Commanding General of the United States Army, 1864 to 1865
18th President of the United States, 1869 - 1877

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Family Favorites:
Robert Service ~ "A Hero"


~~ Previous Veterans Day Posts ~~
& Google Doodle

Saturday, November 7, 2020

Wednesday, November 4, 2020

My Shadow and Me

Happy 125th Birthday to my maternal grandfather Paul Jones Lindsey, born on this day in 1895 -- in a covered wagon in northeast Oklahoma. I like this picture of him and his shadow, taken about 100 years ago by an anonymous creative friend who noticed the light at just the right moment and seized the opportunity to capture it in time for future generations.


My friend Beata shared this striking pre - Thanksgiving
photo and a few possible titles, such as
With Two of My Shadows, Talking with my Shadows
or Shifted Me.

Monday, November 2, 2020

A Bonfire for All Souls

All Souls Night

Bonfires dot the rolling hills
Figures dance around and around
To drums that pulse out echoes of darkness
Moving to the pagan sound

Somewhere in a hidden memory
Images float before my eyes
Of fragrant nights of straw and of bonfires
And dancing till the next sunrise

I can see lights in the distance
Trembling in the dark cloak of night
Candles and lanterns are dancing, dancing
A waltz on All Souls Night

Figures of cornstalks bend in the shadows
Held up tall as the flames leap high
The green knight holds the holly bush
To mark where the old year passes by

I can see the lights in the distance
Trembling in the dark cloak of night
Candles and lanterns are dancing, dancing
A waltz on All Souls Night

Bonfires dot the rolling hillsides
Figures dance around and around
To drums that pulse out echoes of darkness
And moving to the pagan sound

Standing on the bridge that crosses
The river that goes out to the sea
The wind is full of a thousand voices
They pass by the bridge and me

I can see the lights in the distance
Trembling in the dark cloak of night
Candles and lanterns are dancing, dancing
A waltz on All Souls Night


Music & lyrics by Loreena Mckennitt (b 1957)
Canadian singer - songwriter
It was completely dark when I took these pictures,
but somehow I unintentionally captured
more light than expected.
Happy Blue Halloween Moon!
All Saints Moonrise

Sunday, November 1, 2020

The Mourning After

Halloween ~ Just Before Midnight
Downtown Chicago 
Photo by Sam McCartney

Last night, a happy haunted Halloween; this morning, a blustery All Saints Day. We awake in mourning -- for Halloween, for October, for Daylight Saving Time. As of today, it's all over, and the bleak mid - autumn is upon us. In fact, we are precisely in the middle of autumn, at the magical half - way point between the Autumnal Equinox (Mabon) and the Winter Solstice (Yule), which is what all the Samhain and Dia de los Muertos celebrations are all about.

As a special bonus, the hour that we sacrificed back at the beginning of Daylight Time is restored to us, but still, despite that extra slice of light on the sundial, it seems to have have grown darker out and I cringe to "always hear Time’s wingèd chariot hurrying near." Why is that?

Thoughts from friends and poets:

"Time has come today! Time!"
Thanks Rita Burrell

"Do not let yourself be deluded by anyone;
this is all I teach
."
~Rinzai
Thanks Michael Lipsey

"Take pity on time ." ~Edward Lucie - Smith

" . . . our pitiful share of time . . ." ~X.J. Kennedy

"Do not pity the dead, Harry.
Pity the living
. . . "
~ J. K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (722)

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And, finally, this poem, which you might remember
was recited in the movie Four Weddings and a Funeral
-- that's how I first learned about it.
In connection with the above passages, I think it explains why
the custom of mourning for an entire year makes a lot of sense:

Funeral Blues
(Song IX / from Two Songs for Hedli Anderson)
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone.
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling in the sky the message He is Dead,
Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever, I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun.
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Wystan Hugh Auden (1907-1973)

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Need something to fill that extra hour?
In addition to contemplating our mortality
and that of our loved ones, past and present,
check out my book blog & get some reading done!
Current post: "The Jeweled Books in the Shelves"

Saturday, October 31, 2020

Trick or Treat!

This Is Halloween

Good News From The Daily Upside:

"Halloween may have looked different this year [2020],
but the spoils were still plentiful.
Candy sales were up 8.6% vs. last year,
according to the National Confectioners Association.
"
[click to subscribe for more positive economic news]

The beautiful innocence of Halloween
that we all remember from childhood!


As my friend Vickie Amador wrote, "We are so lucky
to have had the Halloweens we enjoyed as children
and that your lads" experienced growing up in Philly.
"Celebrate the beauty of this transformative
season with your new wee bairn!"
Ellie’s First Halloween ~ Baby Boiler!
Happy Halloween from Ben & Cathleen!  Boooooo!
Sam & Friends: some scary facial masks!

Thursday, October 29, 2020

Rest in Peace Henry Wise Miller

Posting today in honor of
my great - great - grandfather,
who died 105 years ago today ~ RIP
Henry Wise Miller
(May 27, 1834 ~ October 29, 1915)
&
Elizabeth Birkinbine Miller
(February 28, 1938 ~ March 28, 1925)

For more on his life and death,

see my current post:

"The Birkinbine Millers of Oak Street"

@The Fortnightly Kitti Carriker
A literary blog of connection & coincidence;
custom & ceremony

Looking over the various photographs and artifacts from Great - Great - Grandfather Miller's life, I can't help thinking of this haunting passage from William Soutar (1898 - 1943) and wondering if it goes both ways -- not only why do we wish to be remembered, but why do we wish to remember these dear old folks who have never looked, can never look, upon our face?
"Why do we wish to be remembered, even when none remain who looked upon our face? Surely, though it must retain an element of self- consideration, it is a last acknowledgment that we need to be loved; and, having gone from all touch, we trust that memory may, as it were, keep our unseen presence within the borders of day."
Is it their love or approval that we seek? Or perhaps the opportunitity to say, "Look at us; we are you great - great - grands! It was all worth it! We're going to the future and taking you with us!" Whatever our motiviation, we sense their unseen presence, whenever we look at the old photos, visit the cemetery, or honor the ancestors, on Memorial Day or Dia de los Muertos.

Wishing you a long, introspective weekend!
~ All Hallows ~ All Saints ~ All Souls ~

Tuesday, October 27, 2020

Harvest Home

Raise the song of harvest home!
COUSINS ON A HAYSTACK
Kansas ~ 100 years ago
Looking into the sun ~ or into the future?!

READY FOR A HAYRIDE
My Great - Uncle Harry (1887 - 1940)
pretending that the wagon needs gas.  Haha!
And his wife, Great - Aunt Ethel, top left.
In the photo above, their daughter Mildred (b 1913)
sits at the very top of the haystack.

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More about Harry Louis Heideman, older brother 
of my Grandmother Rovilla Heideman Lindsey

Sadly, his obituary:
According to the family apocrypha,
Harry's last words were “Don’t blame the boy”
[the 16 year old driver who didn’t see him].

More sadness:
 Harry's middle name “Louis”
 was for his father’s younger brother
  Louis Heideman (1869 - 1884)
who died young in a drowning accident.
 
Here is Great - great Uncle Louis’s
fancy calling card — all the rage in those days!

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Little Dishes

Doll Dishes from the 1930s
Cracker Barrel Harvest Plate from Cheryl
Lenox Vase from Vicky
Flowers from Beata's Garden

As a child, I always preferred old books and toys over anything offered to me from the 1960s. I played for hours with these vintage dishes from my mother's childhood, serving tea to my grandmother's Nina and the other old dolls. The vivid Fiesta Ware glaze spoke to my nostalgic heart -- beautiful breakable ceramic, not tin or plastic!

I have kept them on the windowsill for several months now, along with the Swarovski Crystal dish that my friend Mary Alice sent a couple of years ago. In January (okay, maybe February) 2020, when I put all the other Christmas things away, I decided to keep the crystal out, where it casts these rainbow patterns every day. So many treasures, reminding us of dear friendships, of days gone by and yet to come.

Inside the crystal dish, not entirely visible, are a red heart ~ from Auntie Wickie ~ and a miniature globe of the earth, just a few of the talismans that are helping us get through this very strange and worrisome year.

"You Will Be the Light"

Sunday, October 18, 2020

Encounters with the Truth

"The sun through green leaf's flesh . . .
 branching veins . . . planned avenues . . . "

Incidental Finding

The sun through green leaf’s flesh recalls
the X-ray: inner structures seen
but imprecisely, branching veins
and something like planned avenues
all leading to the source of what
we never cease to seek. Too few,
too momentarily alight,
these chance encounters with the truth.
The X-ray that permitted me
to see both into you and through
(the glowing silhouette of your
soft tissues like the swaddling soul)
still diagnoses it: “a mass,”
the radiologist in me
could not help noting first—and then,
your failing heart, terribly large.

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The Mental Status Exam

What is the color of the mind? Beneath
The cranium it’s pinkish grey, with flecks
Of white mixed in. What is the mind’s motif?
Depends on what you mean: it’s either sex
Or it’s a box, release or pessimism.
Remember these three things, ball, sorrow, red.
Count backwards, from one-hundred down by sevens.
What is the color of the mind? It’s said
That love can conquer all — interpret, please.
And who’s the President? What year is it?
The mind is timeless, dizzy, unscrupulous;
The mind is sometimes only dimly lit.
Just two more silly questions: Can you sing
For us? Do you remember those three things?
by Rafael Campo (b. 1964)
Poet and physician

"What is the color of the mind?
. . . pinkish grey, with flecks
Of white mixed in." 

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The Universe is a House Party

The universe is expanding. Look: postcards
And panties, bottles with lipstick on the rim,

Orphan socks and napkins dried into knots.
Quickly, wordlessly, all of it whisked into file

With radio waves from a generation ago,
Drifting to the edge of what doesn’t end,

Like the air inside a balloon. Is it bright?
Will our eyes crimp shut? Is it molten, atomic,

A conflagration of suns? It sounds like the kind of party
Your neighbors forget to invite you to: bass throbbing

Through walls, and everyone thudding around drunk
On the roof. We grind lenses to an impossible strength,

Point them toward the future, and dream of beings
We’ll welcome with indefatigable hospitality:

How marvelous you’ve come! We won’t flinch
At the pinprick mouths, the nubbin limbs. We’ll rise,

Gracile, robust. Mi casa es su casa. Never more sincere.
Seeing us, they’ll know exactly what we mean.
Of course, it's ours. If it's anyone's, it's ours
.

by Tracy K. Smith (b 1972)
22nd Poet Laureate of the USA, 2017 to 2019
See also:
The World is Your Beautiful Younger Sister

on amazon.com

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Thanks to my friends From Jill & Phil
for sending me these poems
from the Science Friday website, March 29, 2019

And
~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JILL! ~~

P.S.
Mysterious note to self: "misspell"
[Not sure what I meant by that? Any ideas?]

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Finding the Light

By the light of the
Full Corn Moon, back in September
“We are here because we are born with the capacity
to find hidden light in all events and all people,
to lift it up and make it visible once again and
thereby to restore the innate wholeness of the world."
  

from
Becoming Wise: An Inquiry into
the Mystery and Art of Living
 
(p 25)
 by Krista Tippett 

For more lyrics about light,
see my current post:

"You Will Be the Light"

@The Fortnightly Kitti Carriker
A literary blog of connection & coincidence;
custom & ceremony


" . . . suddenly death seems easier, more inevitable than life.
 . . . [but] I try to appreciate the joy of the moment
without the sorrow
."


from Shabanu: Daughter of the Wind (pp 16, 231)
by Suzanne Fisher Staples
A hopeful October Harvest Moonrise,
and tiny green Halloween ghost
flying around our neighbors’ window!